Thoughts on Being Pregnant | Week 24

After my blog post last week, I was blown away by the love, support, and concern shared by friends, family, and strangers. I know God hears our prayers, so I ask you to keep praying. I find myself waking up in the middle of the night to pray. It's hard to sleep. The cats seem annoyed when I wake them up, but they need to get used to that.

Like any first time parents, we are both excited and nervous for our little girl to arrive. She has some huge hurdles to jump, but I am praying for miracles. God can do anything and perhaps he will see fit for our daughter to be healed. While she's cooking, I'll keep praying for her growth and development.

A new little portion of my weekly updates will include a small list of exciting things we did with our daughter. Life is precious and short for all of us. This week, Cal and I went to Outer Banks, NC to celebrate our 7th wedding anniversary. We took her to Jockey's Ridge, Manteo, and to see the ocean. Everyone needs to experience the ocean! It's been a long while since I put my toes in the Atlantic in April and BRRR! SO COLD. I collected a few shells, which we will put in her nursery.

A few other exciting things she got to do this week:
-Gardening. I've been helping Cal a little with our vegetable garden in the back yard. Okay, by "help" I really mean supervise. ;)
-Enjoyed some fresh, farm picked strawberries. She seems to like oranges/clementines the most, but the strawberries had her rolling, too.
-She got to hear Kari Jobe sing live! I love Kari and her music. Cal and I went to the Outcry concert on Sunday evening. Whenever music is playing, baby is moving.

For me personally, I've decided I actually enjoy being pregnant. I mean, I would enjoy being pregnant if there weren't complications with our princess. It takes a large amount of effort on my part, but I'm sincerely trying to savor the 2nd trimester. I'm thankful for Cal - he provides superb foot rubs and back scratches.

I'm obviously showing now. She is kicking me so hard, my belly moves. I like that part. We had our first stranger-to-belly interaction the other day. The sweetest lady talked about how a healthy baby and healthy mom are all that matters. I smiled, thanked her, and moved along. Four more months of strangers not knowing.

A few Q&A's for people who are curious:
Do we have a medical diagnosis? Yes, but to protect our privacy and hers, we've decided not to share any details. I will not subject my daughter to other people's Google searches. In these situations, people tend to think they are a doctor and have answers to "help." It does not help us. It doesn't help her. And it certainly doesn't help to have public discussions about whatever may be wrong with her little body. Don't make mama bear come out. Our little girl is one in millions and I guarantee you won't know anything about it anyway.

Will I still be doing weddings? ABSOLUTELY! In fact, when a vendor friend or a bride texts me about wedding stuff, it is one of the rare times I am able to come out of my fog. I am SO THANKFUL for my upcoming weddings. I have a small handful to get through, and I am looking forward to soaking up every minute of each one. My brides may not realize this, but they are doing me a huge favor by letting me serve them...especially this season.

Do we need anything? I imagine the occasional meal would be nice when she arrives, but for now, I need you to pray. Pray for healing, pray for our strength, and pray for our parents.

"In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed."
1 Peter 1:6-7